Sunday, December 18, 2016

Ice Cream For Rainbows...



i just spent an exorbitant amount for 4 pints of ice cream...

and i'm not talking about the normal locally produced kind... im talking imported, gourmet and insanely overpriced ice cream that you can’t get anywhere else ... (unless you live in the states then it’s probably dirt cheap there compared to here)... 

i got 1 pint of deep dark chocolate gelato, 1 specialty espresso goats milk ice cream,  and 2 more pints from my ex bf's named "ben & jerry"...

now what drove me to do this ? it’s simple....

i had a very interestingly bad start to the weekend and so i tried to keep myself occupied by watching a movie then window shopping then going to the gym then watching 3 episodes of f.r.i.e.n.d.s back to back but at last all of them failed to keep my mind off horrible thoughts that were plaguing me...

so... instead of grocery walking... i went a step further by doing a little “grocery therapy”... (well unfortunately that didn’t help either)... not one bit... GOSH... whenever i was feeling down before... a good chocolate ice-cream orgasm would always do the trick... but not this time...

and its not like i can just go to a gay bar and pick up a random guy for a one night stand... (There is like only 1 gay bar here in town... and no...i am not ever going back there again)... 

also it’s not like i can just look on recon to tie up the closest piece of ham within a 3 mile radius... (Though that would be oh so great ...)... oh... that would really do the trick ... the real deal... oh... seriously... a little kinky fun would be so good for me right now...

i don’t know what to do anymore... to just make myself feel happy...

i can’t depend on anyone to share the feelings im going through...

i only have myself ... to make MYSELF happy...

2016... “the year to be happy”... that was what i promised myself to do this year....

but it’s just too hard... it’s just too damn hard...

and now all i have are 4 pints of overpriced ice cream yet i see no rainbows hanging over my horizon...

:-(


4 comments:

Anonymous said...

What's the gay bar called?

N!LoC said...

I think it's called "loso"

Gustavo Woltmann said...

Wow! My favorite is ice cream. Thank you for this post.

- gustavo woltmann

N!LoC said...

:-) !!!

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