Sunday, January 31, 2016

Last One Standing...



the time has come....and it’s basically official...

you see i always knew i was never gonna get married... because i knew i was gay... and i knew i would never marry a girl... so way back in high school... i made a bet with my group of friends... that if i got married first... i would buy each and every one of them a brand new house...

and if i were to get married at all... i would buy each and every one of them a brand new car...

yes... i was that sure of myself... that is why i dared to place that silly bet with them...

(back then same sex marriage was absolutely completely  totally unheard of... my god i never thought i’d live to see the day that same sex marriage would be finally legal in some countries... we really have come a long way...)

so as the years went by... one by one... all the girls eventually met their boyfriends and husbands and rebounds that turned out to be prince charmings (with lots & lots of  $$$)... they all got married... the guys all got hitched  too... with kids ... loving wives and the whole enchilada... 

as far as i know... basically everyone in my graduating class of 2### are all married... even the 2 guys that turned out to be gay... both have lovely hubbies of their own... i mean... for us gays that live in this part of the world where we can’t get legally married ... being in a long term committed relationship with a guy is as good as it gets! hence... their “hubbies” !

and here i am... at the tender age of ## still never had a real life boyfriend.... and “technically” still a virgin... sad as it sounds... it really is sad as it seems!..... really !

but i did tell myself that 2016 will be the year of “happy”... and i am not gonna dwell on how single and alone i am... because “if it happens it happens”... and that’s all i have to get by these days... and that affirmation really helps me tremendously... 

** so as one of my (mean girls) friend just texted me out of the blue to invite me to her fabulous wedding in 2017... she just made it clear that i have officially become...
the last one standing...

:-( 

2 comments:

Tim Vernon said...

Your new acknowledgement of positive affirmation is a giant step for and something I encourage. The universe responded to your request, you created your own reality. To told the world you would be the last one standing and that what you got. I tried to explain this to you with you poem " through the window". Your girlfriend only every saw and talked about how they would look in their beautiful wedding dress. And all you saw an said is I'll be the last one standing.

It's not to late.your words have proved so powerful. You must understand power of positive thinking works both way positive and negative, and yours is amplified by writing it.

N!LoC said...

:-)

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