Sunday, August 24, 2014

And Another Year Of Blogging...




yes... ICE CREAM AND RAINBOWS is going to turn 3 this coming month of september...

and to commemorate another entire year of blogging... i have hand picked some posts from the past year that are intimately & uniquely special to me and will be adding some insightful "behind the writing" commentary as to what inspired me to write them... 

looking back in retrospect... hmmm  it really does bring back a lot of memories...

i hope i have enough in me to be blogging for yet another year ahead and would also like to thank all the readers out there for your continuous support and reading ...



:-)

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Gays...


:-(

 ..."i just dropped my phone and broke down in silence..."
because in actual fact... it felt like my heart fell to the ground and shattered into pieces...

see.. a friend of mine was sending me pics on whatsapp of half naked guys out of the blue... and to quote what she specifically said was:- “here are some pics of gays”...  (oh i always get irritably offended when she uses the word “gays” like we are some sort of sub species of human nature.. sigh**)

anyways...as i was strolling down her messages... there was this pleasantly loving pic of 2 guys... (yes.. i use the word “G U Y S” not “G A Y S”...)... and at first glance i didn’t really notice who they were.. i was thinking probably just some random gay couple or so...

until after a closer inspection... i just dropped my phone and broke down in silence... because that guy (wearing dark blue sweater)  in the pic.. was actually one of my ex classmates back in high school...

he and i ... back in the day were always the ones targeted by (haters / homophobes / bullies) because we were slightly "different" and got called “gays” at one point or another... and out of my whole class.. only 3  guys that i know of (including myself) turned out to be indeed gay!.. or came out as gay shortly after graduation during  further studies overseas...

one of them (fatty) came out in a very fabulously over the top fashion on facebook (now still living happily ever after with his colonel sanders KFC look-alike - rice queen - sugar daddy in Australia) and the other gay classmate (dark blue sweater guy, as shown in the picture)  never really made any official public announcement  but pics of him and his guy "friend" on facebook said more than enough for everyone to match the dotted lines...

i’m not quite sure where he is at... but im assuming somewhere in Australia as well... and as i zoomed in on his gorgeous better half... i fell even more deeper into my emotional masochistic sadness... and my mind started racing with all these stupid thoughts of..

“ooo?  just imagine all the amazing love making they must have?”

“oooo? look at his manly stubble... he must have one hell  of a treasure trail underneath  that hoodie of his...”

“oooo? just imagine how hairy his pits must be?”

“00000! just imagine the ecstasy of ##$%$%^^.....” (i think i should stop typing now before i get carried away..)

but in the end... my last thought of wonderment was...

“sigh.... when is it ever gonna be my time...?” my time to live? ... my time to love?... my time to experience all the living dreams or reality life has to offer?

i have dreams of finding a man who would treat me like the very fragile princess that i am ... a man who can accept all my idiosyncrasies and devilish desires... a man who could love me unconditionally for me... ALL OF ME...

and i know that dream is still there somewhere...

but it’s just so hard to believe in it right now... 

:-(

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Snap 2.0...


this father of 2 has a sexy tiger claw tattoo on his right pec muscle....

but unfortunately i couldn't get the snap from the front... dAMN!!!! 

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

For Real...



i love you like a lover...
i love you like a friend...
i love you like no other...
it's so hard to comprehend...

love is something amazing...
and i'm blessed that i can feel...
a love that is so special...
a love that is for real...


~ by N!LoC ~


Thursday, August 7, 2014

40,000 And Counting...


and counting...


40 000...

wow...  and i just ironically realized i didn't even do a post when i reached  30,000 !!!!! oh gosh.... (how could i have missed that milestone!!!)

anyways...so i guess to commemorate this amazing milestone which has been long overdue since 20,000... i feel like it should only be fitting for me to give an oscar / grammy'esque awards acceptance speech again right?? hehehe ... ok here it goes

"first and foremost i would like to thank god... for blessing me with this innate ability to write and put my feelings so effortlessly into words ...

big thanks to BLOGGER a.k.a BLOGSPOT...if it wasn't for you... i would be using wordpress (giggle giggle)

a huge shout out to GOOGLE for linking some of the weirdest key word searches i have ever seen back to my blog !

thank you FACEBOOK for allowing me to start a GAYBLOGS reference page and  for directing gay traffic my way...

and lastly...

the readers...

the random readers... the one time readers... and the regular readers and a couple of dinasours ...

but to one specific dinosaur in particular... who has been right there reading my blog at a time when "another" dinosaur decided to stop reading altogether... you are always there "commenting" and "liking" and "google plus-ing" ... and i want to thank you for your loyal continuous support... i am so proud to have you as my NEW number one fan..."

(blows a kiss to the audience as the orchestra music starts playing me out...)

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Chandelier...



Sia ~ Chandelier...


"I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist...Like it doesn't exist"


(yes... my song of the moment...)

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Singapore Part 2 : A Mariah Feeling...



this may sound strange and a lil bit over the top... but i think i have a very special connection with Mariah Carey...

the first time i saw Mariah in concert was a good few years ago and it was in Singapore... and during that time.. i managed to witness an epic moment.... (the very first time she has ever fallen down on stage during a live performance.. and to make it even more epic.. she was about 2 months pregnant then!)


and besides that... i also remember seeing a particular video on youtube documenting her arrival at the airport ... terminal 3 to be precise...  


now... when i was at the same airport doing my last minute shopping at the departure hall... at (terminal 3).... i was overcame by a feeling and overwhelming sense of de ja’ vu...

and it took me only a second to realise why...

it was because i remember seeing that exact place and entrance where Mariah made her grand arrival at the airport...TERMINAL 3 !!!  and with my amazing photographic memory and all... i was able to recognise that particular area...

then... oddly enough... i had this very strange **optimistic feeling of something good... that was definitely gonna happen... it was more than just a gut instinct.. it was... something more unexplainable than that...

after touching down back home... i was on my ipad doing my usual googling of the latest Mariah news and so there it was...

BAMM!!!

just hours after i had that *optimistic feeling... the news broke that Mariah was gonna be in Singapore in a couple months to kick off her long awaited world tour and tickets would go on sale the like in 24 hours...

coincidental ? .... maybe... but do u know that with all the things that i was feeling over the past few days while in singapore... on the plane ride back...i just kept repeating to myself... 

“i am definitely gonna be back here... i am definitely gonna come back here.... i am definitely gonna be back here... i am definitely gonna come back here"...

little did i know... and as it turns out ...i actually would be back in singapore much sooner than later...

and i have a feeling i am gonna get a chance to quench my "thirst" this time around

:-)

Friday, August 1, 2014

Singapore Part 1 : Thirsty...



i just recently made a trip to Singapore for a well deserved holiday...

and i think i forgot just how g0rgEoUs all the guys were over there... it was like a breath of fresh air from my daily boredom town here... to bask in the hustle and bustle of the crazy city life...

i don’t remember seeing these many guys in tank tops since the last time i was there... and man oh man ... being there reignited my horny spark plug and got my sexual motor running!... i was pretty much horny as hell every night when i got back to the hotel room...    

but you know me?... i always seem to complicate my feelings with my inferiority complex and my ugly duckling syndrome...

i saw soooo many (obvious & not so obvious) gay couples there... rice queens with their younger skinny princes... sugar daddies and their sexy money boy toys.. and the worst of the worst out of all gay couples....

“the beautiful ones”...

both young and / or similar ages ... easy on the eyes... and many of them interracial.. (asian + white) and you can just tell by their body language ... that they do have something special going on... which has always been one of my dreams on my bucket list of things to do in this lifetime before i die...

it just made it all too apparent that i’m just soooo not "lucky in love" to have opportunities to meet or even know such guys... i had a feeling yearning... YEARNING for some physical interaction with a guy... that i actually went as far as putting up my RECON profile again while i was there... just to see if any opportunities could arise...

there is a good reason why i deleted my recon profile in the first place.. (well.... twice actually lol!)... but i figured.. i never used a gay location app in a foreign country before,.. so what’s the worst that could happen right?

and putting that recon profile back up was a damm good and smart decision...

the morning i put it up.. i had a guy "cruise" me asking for a kinky "session"... (and a total of 7 other guys chatted with me too right up till the morning i was checking out of the hotel on my day of departure...)

i actually swore not to let myself fool around with this sleazy app again... but life is short... (cliché as it sounds)... i really get the meaning of it now... as i constantly ponder of the lack of sexual activity and experience in my personal life...

i was thirsty..

just like how water is the source of life... i just need to try and "live" life...have "fun"... and i know im gonna hurt myself eventually with all the brush offs and disappointments and rejection when dealing with the jerk-holes on these sort of gay apps time and time again... but i figure... that’s not gonna stop me ...

amazingly... and surprizingly... i actually still believe that i can still live out my fantasies... and turn them into reality...

oh ... all the opprtunities with guys there... sigh...

thirsty... 

that’s what i am right now...



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