Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Hold Me In Your Arms...



Hold me in your arms...
And take my pain away...
All the hurt be gone...
To have a better day...

Tuck me in my bed...
And kiss me on my cheek...
Sing me a loving lullaby...
And hold me as I sleep...

Wipe away my tears...
Help make my life worth living...
Tell me that I am strong...
And never stop believing...

Please hold me in your arms...
I need to feel you now...
You always make my day...

Brighter...
Some way...
Some how...


~ by N!LoC ~

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Snap...


i think this is my very first snap of a guy full frontal !

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Through The Rain...


"i can make it through the rain"... "i can stand up once again"...


do u have a special song that has always helped you through the hard times in life?... a song that you listen over and over again repeatedly in times of despair and sadness or just plain old bleakness?

well for me... there is one song that never fails to inspire me to pick myself up from the ground, lift my head up high, give life a big huge smile and try to live the day with a breath of fresh air again... 

and that song is called “through the rain”...

by non other than my American idol... MARIAH

this particular song is the artful work of life experience after mariah’s now infamous ice cream and rainbows VERY public “breakdown” ... and i remember this being a very potent soundtrack to my own numerous (rock bottom breakdown) moments in life because every single word from that song... has such assertion

that whole vocal acrobatic gear-change from 2nd to 5th at the (end of the bridge) sends glorious positivity down my spine... every single phrase mariah sings just emotes pure medicinal magic for me...

yes... this song actually heals my wary soul....

as cliché as it sounds... there was a particular low point in my life where i was listening to this song and as my tears kept niagra falling (for reasons i wish never to ever feel  again) ... it actually started to rain.... (for a brief moment)... with just enough rainwater precipitation/evaporation or whatever it is... (please mind my 5th grade science knowledge!) for a rainbow to suddenly appear in the sky...

now was that a Mariah “moment” or what??? 

 the only thing missing was a butterfly suddenly fluttering about and landing on my index finger circa “butterfly” 1997 lol ;-p 


as i wrap up writing this blog post... after yet another low “moment”... feeling distraught and wondering if life will ever be kind to me in the most simplest of ways... i listen to the song that helps me make it.... “through the rain”...


Through The Rain ~ Mariah Carey 


Monday, July 22, 2013

A Box Of Pens...



it was back in the day when I was probably in 4th grade....

I was looking forward to graduating and beginning grade 5 and I remember clearly every kid in my class was so excited because this was the year where we finally get to use PENS and not pencils anymore...

gosh it was such a big deal to us...

made us feel like we were finally old enough to use ink... lol...

**I don’t know why I suddenly remembered this particular moment in time but I got this flashback... from just looking at a box of pens... 

:-)

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Dear Rob...



i know that this may sound a little silly...
but you somehow still manage to cross my mind...
and even though  now you’re just a simple memory...
you still flash through me from time to time...

was it love at first sight? or was it just a crush?
was it a moment of fate, that i let slip away?
so many feelings were left unanswered...
like not even knowing if you were even... gay?

i missed you so much for all the wrong reasons...
all my innocent feelings, just couldn’t contain...
i do hope that one day you might somehow think of me...
for our paths in life may never cross, ever again...

~ by N!LoC ~


Monday, July 15, 2013

Snap...


skinny never looked soo good...

see that hint of pit hair ???

i told you !

i like ALL guys... no matter how young or old... how skinny or fat....

as long as he is in a tank top.. i am down for it !

(but i just hope this boy is of legal age... because he does look like jail bait)

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Picture Frames...


picture picture picture


i once filled every inch of wall space in my room with posters of the spice girls... sporty... baby... scary... ginger and POSH... in all their glory of their hey days...

when i was getting into the groove as a teeny bopper...i put up pictures of my high school friends... thinking that they were what defined me in the brutal pecking order hierarchy of “cool” ness...

and after the spiceworld mania in my head subsided... i replaced them with posters of video game characters and fantasy heroes... yeah... i guess i was a role playing game (RPG) junkie for a good number of years...

then during my college years i had the nerve to  put up sensual homoerotic photo spreads i cut out from fashion magazines...(just to help me get through my intensely horny dog days)...giggle giggle (my personal record was 7x's in one day) HA HA HA!

and the last poster i ever put up on a wall was of Mariah during her “emancipation” comeback year... it was when i cemented my adoration for her... and made me an eternal fan for life !

so through the years... pictures have come and gone... posters were ripped down and thrown away... and as of now... i don’t have any pictures or posters in my room anymore... but i do hope that one day i can put a picture on my bed side table...

perhaps a picture to look at every night before i go to sleep... and again to glance at every morning when i wake up...

a picture that can frame my life... and maybe a life...that can be framed...in that picture...

Monday, July 8, 2013

Snap...


ooo... what broad shoulders you have!....


i was waiting in line at the check-out counter... and look what was standing in front of me???

a guy in a TANK TOP!!!! (yes.. i use the word.."what" and not "who") because to me... when a guy wears a tank top...i automatically dehumanize him and he becomes just a piece of meat...

(and okay....i wasn't actually waiting in line to pay for anything ... i just spotted him and followed behind and "pretended" to que up behind him at the check-out counter)

how... ironic...(giggle giggle).... i'm checking a guy out... at the "check-out" counter lol

:-P

so i pulled out my trustee iphone and snap# snap# baby!!!!! (sang like vanilla ICE)

Friday, July 5, 2013

Yummy Asian Boys...



Japanese prince...
prince of my dream...
a dream so delicious...
like strawberry cream...

Filipino boy toy...
toy i like to play...
playing with u is yum!
yummy all night and day...

my Chinese nerd...
nerdy as i can see...
and i see oh sweet honey...
honey bumble bee...

my Thai cutie pie...
a pie i’d like to eat...
eat u up and swallow...
swallow 'oh' such a treat...

~ by N!LoC ~


Tuesday, July 2, 2013

I Had A Dream...


"baaa aaa aaa.."


i had this dream where i was running through an open prairie with vastly clean green grass all around  and huge bundles of haystacks scattered across...

there were these lamby-mini sheep-lassie looking prairie dogs with thick burly cotton like fur coming my way... (just a couple of them)

and i was trying to out run them... but they all came (galloping) closer to me... and when they did get close enough... i just took my baseball bat and gently "pushed" them away...

(yes i had a baseball bat in my hands)

it was almost as if they were happy to be near me but i felt that they were trying to eat me or something... so i kept pushing them away one by one with my big ole bat...

and then...

“poof”

i woke up...


:-0


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