Wednesday, May 29, 2013

A To Z ...


this is how my mind thinks :-)

someone asked me to play a game ... to name the first "sexual" thing that comes to mind starting from A - Z and i'm gonna do it right here right now... so ready get set ... GO !

  1. ASS…NO!!!! … ARMPIT !!!
  2. BUTT
  3. COCK
  4. DICK
  5. ERECTION
  6. F*CK
  7. GAY
  8. HOT
  9. INK
  10. JACK
  11. KILL
  12. LICK
  13. MOUTH
  14. NIPPLE
  15. ORGASM
  16. PENIS
  17. QUARANTINE
  18. REVERSE
  19. SUCK
  20. TITS … NO!!! TICKLE!!!!
  21. UNDERARM
  22. VULGAR
  23. WIPE
  24. XXX
  25. …..YELLOW MIND?
  26. ZOOLANDER
 (urghh! i want to replace no.8 with .... HAIRY!!!!!)


Sunday, May 26, 2013

This Is My Confession...




Gucci, Pucci, Prada & Fendi? gay, straight or bi ?

(no... not those kinda labels)

top, bottom , versatile , active or passive ?

(hmmm... not those kinda labels either )

but i was thinking more about the labels used to describe the different facets of BDSM...

see, i recently made a profile on a rather kinky gay fetish website and had a hard time stating what exactly i was into... there was a list of main categories to choose from such as (bondage, S&M, discipline etc.) and i was like “hmmm? is there any real difference between bondage or discipline or S&M??? (....well... apparently there is)

then came the next part which was : what is your “role”?

and the list included (master, slave, sub, dom etc.) and there was a choice of a percentage % value you could pick...  for example you could state that you are (70% passive) or let’s say...(50/50)... or a full 100% "active"... get the idea? 

then finally the “what are you into” section of your profile... and i simply wrote “BDSM”... but little did i know... after reading through other elaborate profiles... that included sub categories like (uniforms, underwear, fisting, boot licking, nipple play, pissing, humiliation, pain & torture, breath control, mummification,  electro stimulation etc.)... just to name a few! The different types of interests go on and on for miles ... and the sky seems to be the only limit ! lol... i even came across some really rare ones like “suit & tie bondage”... "extreme navel torture" and “belly sitting” !

and after chatting up with a few guys from there and having also met up with some... i have discovered more about myself  during these past few weeks than i have from my entire “discovery” years...

i am indeed not quite into BDSM per say... but i have found myself to be someone who is specifically into BONDAGE ... plain and simple... (soft core vanilla - handcuffed to the bed and blindfolded) to (hardcore - chained up suspension bondage in a basement dungeon, gagged and hooded )... whatever it is...

my label is definitely BONDAGE... 


Friday, May 24, 2013

Snap...


i just love taking escalator rides....

this was my very first close up shot of a pit !

mmmm ... if only he went up another 3 floors...

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Intuition...



Jewel ~ Intuition


if i were a pop star... this is exactly the kinda music video i would make

giggle giggle....

:-)


Sunday, May 19, 2013

Snap...


gosh... your tank looks skin tight...

such pretty definition...

don't you feel naked in a tank like that?

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Writers Cafe...



as a bonafied blogger (slash) poem writer extraordinaire (yeah i'm milking it baby!)... i always feed off inspiration from many different things... and what is soo important to me are the comments from the readers which they leave on my blog ... especially comments about my superduperfrajalistic personal poems....

if i ever needed extra validation about my poems (which i already do from you lovely readers)... this was the perfect place to get it...

there is just something so great when getting reviews and sometimes constructive feedback about my writing... from writers alike...

so i hope u can take your time to go through some of the comments people leave on there about my writing... and if you have a blog or are a writer... i suggest you try your hand at writers cafe because this site really is...

"the online community for writers"

so here it is...
http://www.writerscafe.org/niloc

Monday, May 13, 2013

A Kinky Kind Of Love...



give yourself to me please don’t be afraid, i'll take good care of you just trust me i swear...
open your heart and let yourself go, just dive into this feeling and let your body be bare...
with every touch that will linger on your skin, you'll feel the warmth of how much i truly care...
because this role that you’ve allowed upon me, there’s really nothing else that can compare...

so let me take away your sight... let the darkness turn into thrill...
let me kiss you in all the wrong places... and let my sins be instilled...
let me taste your manhood... in ways against your will...
then let me give you back your light... open your eyes and know that it was real...

as the rush finally subsides... i'll then hold you in my arms...
treat you with my affection... heal wounds that once were scars...
i’ll look into your eyes... and whisper words so softly...
“you are so beautiful my love... just the way you are”...


~ by N!LoC ~


Thursday, May 9, 2013

Lust At First Snap...


whoops ! got my head in the clouds again...

in my adventures of tanktop snapping... i snap guys that are the usual suspects...

hot...sexy... beautiful...and in tanktops

but in this particular (snap)... there was something different about this guy (yes.. i melt...my insides scream euphoria and my knees start to wobble...happens every time)

the odd thing was while i was snapping him... i had flashes of deep emotions run through me... and i was sure it was more than just "physical attraction"...it was the way he looked... his whole beautiful being... some chemical reaction was definitely stirring in my head because i couldn't stop thinking about that guy for the next couple of days...

see...most times when i see hot guys... i just "oooo" and "ahhhh" over their hotness... but on rare occasions like this... when a guy this beautiful appears out of the crowd... i can't help but wonder...

"how nice if he was mine?" (sigh)

but then reality sets in.. and tells me that it's really just part of the "lusting" process and then the deal breaker conscience in my head says...

"maybe he's not even G A Y ! "

and then i wake up from my fantasy cloud of haze and realize my day dreaming and imaginative mind has gone a little too far yet again...hehe

(sigh)...my god .... he was beautiful

Monday, May 6, 2013

Happier Than Her...


feels like poison...


what do you do when a friend just can’t seem to be happy for you?

in my life...i have made my own personal choices as to what i want to “WEAR”...what i want to “DO”... who i want to “BE”... and who i want to be” WITH”!!! but really what can you do when you have a friend who just doesn’t seem to want to celebrate “ME “???

see... before i came out of the closet... she bashed me for apparently seeming so GAY all the time...

then when i finally came out... she immediately stereotyped me as a c0[k sucking @ss f#ck!ng XXX maniac

when i encountered my first “almost” boy friend (who turned out to be a complete player)... i didn't get the support system i truly i needed from her after all the drama that i went through with that jerk... 

and when i finally encountered my first “actual” boyfriend... i was made to feel like it was a complete joke like it was just a desperate attempt of having any minuscule sense of a relationship saying things like... "it will never last"...

through thick and thin... i have swallowed my pride, put my tail between my legs and bit down my own tongue just to accommodate the narcissistic... pessimistic and drama-listic girl who i still consider as my closest friend...

but in all honesty... at what point does it have to come to? when you throw up your white flag and just take a “break”... yes... take a “break” from this thing i still call a friendship?

maybe the point where i get asked by her about my happiness.... then being put down for it because GOD FORBID ! no one else’s happiness can ever come before hers...?

it’s sad but true...

:-(

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Nothing...




A day goes by… that turns into weeks…
Still not a single word… when a “text” Is all I seek…

Too sick to even bother?
Too busy to even care?

Well if "nothing" is what you want…
Then that’s the last thing I will bear…


~ by N!LoC ~

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