Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Snap...


god... this one was a real hottie !

i was determined to snap him despite the crowd...

thank god he never turned around ! hihihi


Sunday, January 27, 2013

Cry...



i try to keep strong...
pretending everything is fine...
but sometimes it's hard to smile...
hiding feelings i have inside...

i listen to Mariah, and feel her "through the rain"...
then i put on Celine, asking "where is the love"...
and then Whitney comes on, she helps me with the pain...
she sings "i look to you", and i too... look up above...

i feel all bottled up, holding in so much...
it's too overwhelming no matter how hard i try...
i just close my eyes and take a long deep breath...
just let it all go, and let myself...
cry...


~ by N!LoC ~


Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Snap...


ooo what a nice tattoo u have !

hmmm if only i could read thai...

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Je t’aime Beaucoup Mon Amour...



sometimes i get happy... sometimes i get sad...
today i'm all jolly... tomorrow i'm just mad...
i don’t know why i feel like this... i'm scared to even fathom...
maybe i should ask myself this question...“ why does it hurt so bad ? ”

i psyche myself out with so many stupid things...
silly stupid things that really shouldn’t even matter...
but i now wonder about this silly little stupid thing...
like why my fragile heart just seems so shattered?...

last night i had enough... this morning i'm back for more...
 I said i would count to “three”... but i'm still counting at “four”...
i don’t know what i'm saying & i don’t know what i'm doing...
but i know this much for sure... Je t’aime beaucoup mon amour...


~ by N!LoC ~

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

My American Idol...





Back in 2008... MARIAH was a guest mentor on American idol and I was so freakin’ excited about it…i mean.... c’mon... it was... MARIAH week ! 

contestants trying to sing MARIAH songs… MARIAH getting international tv time… MARIAH performing "live" on the results show… 

I was so happy for MARIAH because for me… it was basically MARIAH overload !

Back then It was just wishful thinking… hoping that one day maybe MARIAH could be a guest judge on idol...that would be so cool wouldn’t it?

Then 4 years later… BAMM! She takes the diva seat on the panel of judges… I know this may seem a little over dramatic but in some ways… this is actually gonna be a dream come true for me…

A simple thought that was just innocent wishful thinking then sprinkled with a little dash of hope… and now it is actually gonna happen!  I still can’t believe that I am gonna be getting my weekly dose of MARIAH and that’s why I’m gonna cherish this season as if it’s her first and last time on the show (which is definitely a possibility depending on the ever declining ratings)

Oh there is so much to look forward to this season…

Mariah Carey….

My American idol…

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Snap...


oooOO

aaaaaaaa@@

mmmmmMMM

(i just love it when the weather is hot and sunny....guys just naturally wear tank tops out)


Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Love Is Never Ending...


"seasons come and seasons go..."
"one day sun...the next day snow..."
"flowers die and flowers grow..."
"but love is never ending..."



Love Is Never Ending ~ Brad Paisley

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Hate...



Hate is such a strong word...
yet i could say things like “i hate you”
“f#ck” may sound even more absurd...
yet i still could curse and say “f#ck you”

the ignited fire burnt through my veins...
emotions ruptured in the heat of the moment...
the embers and ashes dispersed from the flames...
and the last thing on my mind was to feel any atonement...

YOU HURT ME IN WAYS & YOU DON’T EVEN REALIZE!!!
I TRY TO REASON BUT U JUST SAY THAT I CRITICIZE!!!
YOU CAUSE ME SUCH PAIN YET BLATANTLY APOLOGIZE!!!
I JUST WANT TO BE HEARD AND FOR YOU TO JUST RECOGNIZE...

how i truly care for you for reasons i can’t understand...
i fight out of passion because i believe i can get through...
but through all my drama please don’t ever misunderstand...

HATE = i want to Hold And Tenderly Embrace you...


~ by N!LoC ~ 


Thursday, January 3, 2013

Where I'll Be...




 i cross my fingers hoping there will come a day...
a day when you finally get the chance to feel  my touch...
and even though it’s only just a simple flight away...
the weight that rests on your shoulders sometimes seem all too much...

your golden heart has truly proved so far & beyond...
to put the needs of others first way before your very own...
 i can understand the guilt of where you’re coming from...
then again who on earth would ever want to be left alone ?

i’m staying positive that things will somehow all work out...
because just meeting you would mean the world to me...
but through it all, i don’t have any shadow of a doubt...
come spring time this year, in your arms... is where i'll be...


~ by N!LoC ~

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

You...




I ask myself honestly why do I feel this way…

I’m so lost for words from knowing what you said today…

Maybe because of some words that you just could never say to me…

Yet those words I longed for… were said to others as far as I can see…

You know, a boy has gotta hear those words from time to time…

To know that he is “needed” and will not be left behind…

 To know he will be “missed” when his lonely days seem blue…

 And to know that he feels “loved” from his one and only…

You :-(


~ by N!LoC ~



** (if you have someone special in your life... let them know every now & then what they mean to you... because sometimes they need to hear you say those "words" even though they might already know it... so as this being the first blog post of the new year... i hope this poem inspires anyone reading this to tell that someone special in your life just how much they really mean to you...)

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