you know that CELINE DION song all by myself ? the one where she sings...
"when i was young... i never needed anyone..(well.. whenever i lip synced to that song... i always sang it a little differently...)
making love... was just for fun.... those days are gone.."
"when i was young... i never needed anyone...you see...in high school when i discovered m@$+ur8@+!ng (a little late i know) .... i would fantasize about my guy friends shirtless while i jacked off.. it was weird at first.. (jacking off while thinking of my guy friends?)...it almost felt WRONG!
m@$+ur8@+!ng... was for fun... those days are gone..."
i even made up some sort of dramatic notion that it was a true sin to jack off and it was truly the work of the devil... it was the big bad devil that was possessing me to touch myself...
(little did i know... i was just being a "horny little devil") no big deal right !?
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you know...when i was in college.. i actually had urges of hooking up with total strangers and having one night stands with any random hot guy i saw... (it was just all my raging hormones...and also maybe me just being a little desperate as well...)
but... after a while.. it just felt natural.. like.. it's just me.. maturing physically.. and understanding my sexuality and urges...letting my fantasies run wild ....(if only in my head)