CAUC = my boyfriend
ASIAN = me :-)
get it?? (hihihi)
i was actually so determined for it to happen...but then i ran into an unexpected "roadblock" where some jerk played me and just wanted to get into my pants as part of his conquest...
and after that was over ... i felt that maybe loosing my virginity wasn't all that important anymore... (i keep scratching my head as to why i felt that it was such an important thing to accomplish??) ... like some sort of right of passage... (stupid right??)
but now after finding my boyfriend through an online site....and being in a long distance relationship (LDR) with my him for over a year..... i still feel that i am not ready to "do it"... and when i say "do it" i mean (get f*ck3d)
and since my boyfriend made it clear that he is a TOP... i automatically have to be the BOTTOM for him.. (which i find a little unfair)... i don't even have the benefit of the doubt to try both to see which one i may like (provided i actually "like" doing any of it)...
i'm very apprehensive about it... i mean i am not a person who gets turned on by "sodomy"...but then again a lot of my friends keep telling me.."you won't know that until you try ! "
and to quote something so (politically and racially incorrect) my rice queen boyfriend once said to me :-
"i haven't met any asian who didn't like getting f*ck3d!"